As I sat last night with the intent to just let them pass, let them go, release. I can honestly say that this sitting was the only time I have ever really sat with the intent of ok, this is not going to be easy, this is not going to feel good, this is not going to be comfortable. I was all that and it was also a relief.
My feelings.....insecurity, anxiety, fear, confused, lost, anger, sadness, grief, overwhelmed, alone. The thoughts....... what if, how come, why not, why, why, why, this too shall pass.
What I felt during that sit, physically felt.... nausea, relief, peace. I told my self when I felt the physical this too shall pass. I did not know at the time of the feelings, that I was going to get the sense of relief, I dont have to feel this way anymore, and the peace that came over me was quite alarming, may be a bit extreme but I know what I felt. This warm sensation that began in my head and went through out my body.
Today I really did get up with a whole different take on my daily agenda. No insecurity, anxiety, fear, confusion, anger, sadness, or grief. I woke up with a whole different perspective. My day has been very good, no thoughts of wanting to grasp, attach, and control. So far it has been a really good day.
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I really love it when I see evidence of how this thing works when we are willing to sit with the "ouch" of life.
Good stuff. Really good stuff.
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